Younger mixed female

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The Doe is a media and tech company creating paths to improved civil discourse. For the first part of my childhood, I lived in a world blessed by blissful ignorance. But once I hit 12 years old, things started to change. My experience is probably stained by how my mum treated me when I was younger.

Younger mixed female

She constantly would comment on how I looked or on what I was wearing. At school, boys would stare at me and make sexist remarks. When they gossiped about me, they used a codename for me one that I will not repeat here for fear of breaking my anonymity. I mean this literally, as if a simple stretch would cause people to react.

Younger mixed female

But when I would go to the doctor, he would ask for my in order to text me the counseling service details. But I never received them. I asked another doctor for medication to deal with my anxiety, but he offered me beta blockers only. I knew this was because of my skin color, my hair and my features, all of which make me a mixed-race female.

I would see someone else speak their mind about something that upset them. They would receive a respectful response. Perhaps I would have the same opinion, and so I would say or do the same thing, but I never received the same response. The response always felt as if it reined me in.

Younger mixed female

I initially believed that my feelings and experiences were due to being around mostly white people. But when I moved to an area where there was more ethnic diversity, I was disappointed to see that I was sexualized yet again, though in a different way. This time people would subtly ignore my rights as a person.

When I was a young adult and went out clubbing, I often was touched or casually assaulted. When I became upset on a couple of occasions, I gained some insight. Men of color would often direct lewd remarks toward me, about what I was wearing, for example, or how I looked. In truth, I dress with the exact opposite intention.

I had a recent conversation with a male my age. He told me that, when he was younger, he knew a girl at school who posted an article about the negatives of being beautiful. He stopped being friends with her because he thought she was being vain. But when I told him how I tried to hide as much as possible, yet never really could because I was always looked at, he said I changed his mind about how he viewed people he thought were beautiful. He might have been just another person who tried to persuade me that my experiences are unique because I am beautiful.

I am so sick of people believing that just because they find someone attractive that they can treat them how they want. A social media post of mine discussed this very subject. On the one hand, someone replied to say that I was clearly looking for an ego boost. But on the other, I was grateful that other people took it more seriously, and I now know for sure that I am not alone.

Nonetheless, I always have felt alone. I have had one relationship only; my first kiss was at 18; I have been terrified to be seen as anything more than friends with a boy. I may come across as conceited because I am so hyper-aware of the way people view me. To me, I am normal, and I believe I have a right to experience being accepted by a group of people who see me for who I am and not what I look like. My therapist once said to me that I could see the attention I get as a good thing. Just because someone looks different from you, remember, they can have feelings of anxiety and fear too.

The Doe Logo. Log in. Follow Us. Log in The Doe. I felt seen for what my body was becoming. Does my right to my own space and body stop when I get drunk? I Know I Deserve to Be Treated Like Others I have had one relationship only; my first kiss was at 18; I have been terrified to be seen as anything more than friends with a boy. None of us is superhuman.

Younger mixed female

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The loneliness of being mixed race in America